Lately it seems that every man, woman, alien, and their dogs are commenting on my weight! It’s driving me nuts.
Every friend and neighbour I’ve seen in the last few months has, without fail, made a remark along the lines of -
You are looking so WELL, Fiona!
Are you gaining more weight?
You are getting bigger!
And so on. And I am not coping with it at all… every day I feel like the fattest heffalump in the world – despite logically knowing my BMI puts me at underweight, despite my psychiatrist telling me every week I’m still thin. I know he would never lie to me, so that’s kept me a little bit sane.
Today my psychiatrist commented on my weight too! Arggh! Is this “Comment on Fiona’s Weight” year?
He pounced the moment I walked into his office, before my backside had even connected with the chair -
You are almost the right size to do ballet! Have you ever thought of going back to ballet, for enjoyment? How much did you weigh when you were doing ballet before? Was it about this much?
I mean, WTH – I weighed quite a lot more when I used to be a dancer, not least because I was very strong and muscled, but also because I can’t dance now for a reason – I’m way too weak. I hope that my doctor doesn’t subscribe to the ‘ballet dancers must be thin’ school of thought that would be a huge disappointment.
Of course, his comments on top of the many other comments from people lately, caused me to be even more anxious than I’d already been feeling, so I questioned him about whether he thought I looked bigger, or different, or like I was gaining weight. And he said -
No, not at all.. you look almost normal. No I mean you look very very skinny still, from the knees up.
From the KNEES UP? Huh?
Yes, your calves are really big because of all the walking you do, but from the knees up you are still too skinny.
Thanks Doc. Now I feel so much better. NOT.
Weight comments can be a minefield when you have struggled with an ED. What are the worst and best comments you have received, and how did they make you feel?